So, I am a “Star”. Ha ha. No, I am not. I really wanted to be one when I was little but I did not have the guts, drive, or resources to do something about it. I never mentioned to my daughter and when she was 5 she wanted to be an actress after being in a kindergarten play. I guess it runs in the family. For a short while, my brother did casting for tv and he interned on a really big movie in the 90’s-“Fried Green Tomatoes”. I got to go on set with him and it was awesome. But his desire to be a director and/or actor fizzled out. So now, I am getting to see it through my daughter’s eyes. Until yesterday…
Because this is an indie film, it is low-budget and the owner of the company is the director/producer/graphics person. The film for my daughter was just a fun experience because she loves acting. She has not expectations about it being a “major” film. SO when they asked if I wanted to be in a few scenes, I was all like-“Sure”. But, I had no idea that it would be so nerve-wracking or how long and arduous the process can be. I was already scared about having lines, but having to do them over and over made me realize I don’t like acting for myself. I think I would enjoy the technical aspects, or managerial/operational parts.
So, I can truly tell people I have acted and that all these submissions for tv and movies are not for my joy. It is strictly for the love of my daughter. I am so glad that she lights up when she does it. Or, she really commits to her character. And I love that she can memorize lines lightening fast and have the emotions on point to top it all off. But all these trips to and from auditions and to and from rehearsals and updating the resume and paying for new pics, is all for her. If she ever said that she didn’t want to do it anymore, I would be completely on board. A stage mom, I am not!
Have a blessed rest of the day and Sunday!